Butterflies

So, I'm officially nervous. In five days, I start my 545 mile bike ride through California. And, today, I am sick. I've been feeling not-so-good since Sunday. Maybe it's the nerves. Maybe it's still that the school year just ended (relatively speaking). Or maybe I'm just sick. Whatever it is, it's really not helping with the nerves.

But, if I've learned one thing in my life it's that freaking out never helps. So, I'm letting the upset tummy and lethargy serve as a guide to rest, to store up strength, to prepare for the big ride. It won't be easy. I know that. But, I've trained all I possibly could and now this is mine to face. I'll be there with 2500 other riders who have worked hard and raised money relentlessly for months, but it will only be my internal store of strength and belief in myself that will carry me through that week and those miles. Well, and my assortment of Lara Bars.

So, I have some butterflies making a bit of a racket in my tummy. I would be concerned if they weren't! I've always fed off of nervous energy, seeing the tensing muscles and fluttering mind as a sign of my own cache of energy, ready to burst forth. As the days pass, I'm sure I'll get more and more nervous, building more and more energy. Hopefully, right when I need it, it will propel me into action. But, for now, the lethargy is holding me (and my energy) captive in my best friend's apartment in Denver. With hours of netflix and my big, fluffy dog. I can't help but see that this life is good.

Wish me luck. And, if you haven't donated to my participation yet, throw a few bones my way. Donate here.